SYNOPSIS (EN) : Hadi stares at the camera and begins to get dressed. As he prepares himself, he expresses his thoughts on the current situation, how much discrimination and amalgams weigh on him, he who wears the double stigmatizing hat of gay & Arab. What to do with this weight?

DIRECTOR’S STATEMENT (EN) : It is my look, frank, tired but determined. My voice, with the singing accents of my native Lebanon, with the joyful inflections of the gay communities. It is my mouth that I open to express my weariness in front of the discriminations and prejudices that weigh on me, all day long.

I get dressed, like every morning. It’s a universal gesture, but the consequences vary from one individual to another, depending on what someone interprets my outfit as. A pair of jeans, a grey t-shirt, a patterned sweatshirt, an imposing creole, a black hat. The signals diverge… which will assign me terrorist or depraved? The expression in French “avoir une casquette” (having a hat) means to have one role or responsibility, and “avoir la double casquette” (double-hatting) means to have double roles or responsibilities. The weight of the double-hatting of gay Arab – or Arab gay, in which sense will I be less discriminated? – forces me to justify myself constantly, even if it means bordering on paranoia. Am I considered an Arab, a gay man, or just me, Hadi?

I am horrified by the increasing liberation of hate speech and the fragmentation of society into smaller and smaller categories. Everyone wants to see only their own kind, without seeking to engage in dialogue with the other, in tolerance.

I decide to open my mouth to claim a community of caring life where everyone will have his place, without having to justify himself. I want to send a message of hope to all discriminated people by proving that this hat, despite its weight, can be worn proudly. It’s up to us to take back control of it.